It has been so long.

Hi, I am really so bad at writing these days. My life right now is me drowning in job applications, pressures for time and energy, and good stuff also like my conversion process, my friends and family. I received an email from my Rabbi before new years eve which ended the year in the most possible positive way... I am scheduled for the Bet Din (Jewish 'court') for the conclusion of my conversion! In May, and in time for one of my fav Jewish holidays, Shavuot, I will be a celebrating Jewess. I am so excited!

Today was the last day of the holidays and back to normal tomorrow with Elliot being back at nursery, my man back at work and myself back at what I do these days, a bit of this and a bit of that. I really really do want to find work soon. Last week was such a wonderful week with Elliot's bubby, my mans mom, over from the States for a visit.

Elliot and his 'bubby'.

One forgets how isolated one is without famly, and how much more meningful things are with them around. I sure wish that one day we will be living closer to either his or my side of the family. The three of us here in London 'alone' is not optimal, that I feel for sure.

Anyways, it is now late and I have a lot on my schedule for tomorrow. Best get some sleep.

Love to all.

Sara

Big world, many people.

It has always puzzled me that, even though that there are so many people in the world, each and one of us is alone, somehow. There are so many friends around you, around me, who love us. We have husbands. We have wives. We have siblings, we have children. We have communities. We have lovers, even 'soul mates'. Still, there is this big world inside of everyone of us, where we wonder alone.

Embarrassing Sweden

BBC News - Swedish wolves threatened by under-reported poaching

I miss you's.

I miss spending the entire day just spent playing with my son. I miss the conversations with my lover that does not evolve around attentional capture, ANOVA or subliminal priming. I miss being in a socially and emotionally stimulating (i.e. meaningful!) job. I miss our Monday evening Hebrew/Jewish studies lessons with the Rabbi. I miss the feeling of being on the right track of my life. Hang on... I just realised what that track should be... all those things I miss! Come 26th of August and the end to this. I do not like wishing time away however. Will make a promise to myself to do something I find special everyday.

I love my boys, Elliot and Hillary.

Clear vision, clear mind

I want to urge everyone to go to this link to watch this inspiring guy speak. He has some very important things to say!

http://www.livestream.com/ideacity/video?clipId=flv_fd017d81-dc18-42cc-821a-18b86fdea840

Sara

You

Din röst, sången. Dina läppar, längtan. Dina ögon, glöden. Dina axlar, mannen. Dina ben, sårbarheten. Dina händer, värmen.

I would do anything...

to keep these eyes as smiley as this forever.

I have had two lovely days, yesterday and today. They have both been spent with family. Elliot, his sister Sophie and I had a nice time together on Friday. We did not do anything specific, but sometimes just being together is better than anything you could wish for. You might wonder why this is such a big deal, and so important, to me... We have a very delicate and special situation, and for the three of us spending almost a whole day together, and peacefully so, is a true blessing for us. Being around Elliot and Sophie is such a joy. I do think they love each other. Elliot is surely crazy about her.

Today was an 'ordinary' Saturday. Luckily, for me, no Saturday is ordinary however, in the sense of 'everyday life'. Saturdays are Saturdays, and all that was special today is that I love this day. Oh, and also of course, the very fact that I was immersed in the most wonderful time with so many wonderful people...

Anyways, just a few lines.

Sara